Roller coaster..

So the past few days have been rough.. Joel's getting his 2 yr molars and hes making it known hes not happy.  My daughter is also cutting her first tooth.  The past few weeks have been great for Joel as far as his sensory issues.. he pretty much stopped banging his head (which hes been doing since he was able to)  and was seeming pretty regulated with his normal motor breaks, however  the past few days have just been rough.  I'm not sure if its teething related, or maybe the additional of therapy, but I've found myself very close to tears a few times.  I think hes replaced his head banging with spinning.  He's been spinning ALOT.  He's also been shaking his head, but just very quickly then he stops, but he does it many times an hour.. throughout the day.  There have been days where he's been so quite and timid, which is SOOOOOO unlike him, then today he was the complete opposite, bouncing off the walls, screeching all day.  He's been sooo sensitive lately, God forbid I tell him no, you'd think that something awful was happening to him with the meltdowns hes been having.  Some of this can be attributed to him being 2, and him also getting his 2yr molars.  I have so many tools that have been taught to me to use when all this stuff is going on, but I hate when I try EVERYTHING and it makes no difference.  I feel like a failure.   This week I haven't been as patient as I usually am.  I'm overwhelmed.  Taking care of 2 babies all day every day by myself.  Running Joel around to and from therapy all day, by myself.  Trying to find time to do laundry, dishes, clean up the never ending mess that is my house, cooking, feeding, diapers, bathing... my days are redundant.  I'm so greatful that I have my family to help when they can, (with some house stuff, and my mom will take a kid over night here and there to give me a break)   But as far as the autism related stuff, I am completely alone in this and I feel it.  Especially on days like today, when I could really use someone to vent.  I'm just not up for the never ending debate with my family that my sons not autistic.  I'm definetly on a roller coaster ride, majority of it is up.. but when it goes down it flat out sucks.  Tomorrow is My towns fall festival, so hopefully it will be a good day!  Im looking forward to Joel getting his face painted, painting pumpkins, seeing the animals and just having a good time.  We need it!  :o)